Strange
to say, those memories are barely more than water now;
fluid,
indistinct, and always rushing away from me;
that
they were ever more is immaterial, I am not who I was.
I
do, of course, acknowledge that you have been part of that change,
and
for the good, I have not forgotten your part, and I am thankful.
But
I have difficulty remembering you. Your face refuses to settle,
more
or less as water spills, it refuses to fix in my mind;
your
voice comes and goes, otherworldly and faint, like a signal on the
shortwave.
More
strikingly though, your spirit has become remote from me;
not
by choice, but with the passing of time, the mountain of
featureless days
that
I’ve kicked up behind me, the dust of accumulated years between us;
distance
has anaesthetised me; I no longer remember the feeling of
you being here.